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Monday, November 29th, 2010
3:09 pm
idk. fuck this. i cant seem to get happy. i cant seem to figure out what that happiness entitles. is there really a point where one is really truely genuinely happy or is everyone really just pawns in a game.
Tuesday, March 31st, 2009
2:22 am
have u ever cared or loved someone that u never met? had a connection with someone just purely by words and connection. just by someones words and and actions instead of the way their tongue feels inbetween ur legs. this person pushes me, and believes in me more than any boyfriend ive ever had. he wants me to better myself. widen my surroundings. he wants me to be a better person. i think he likes me more than i like me sometimes. its strange. its strange i found someone in a whole nother time zone. someone i connect with on almost every level, and when we dont i have a great time fighting with him cause it brings us closer, and cause he argues...means he cares. am i fucked up? should i not care for someone ive never met?

i also have soemone else i care about in a totally different way. great friend. almost like an authority figure, i respect him and his views on things. he wants to get me a car. i respect him, thats why i kinda dont want to take it cause i dont want to be someones charity case. but he insists.i want him to know its not about the money. its aobut me being here and forming relationships.
Sunday, May 13th, 2007
1:47 pm
ohh god.. that sux. i am so sorry. whish it whould have been better for you? who was it? do i know him? wow, any way i am getting ready to go out to my aunts house...for mothers day! i will talk to you later love you!

Current Mood: exhausted
Friday, May 11th, 2007
3:50 am
I Love You!
Oh wow... did the hair turn out good? I hope so...anywhoo.... I want you to come to my bar wed. night.... i am gonnin be in the pudding wrestling match! I wanna win..... if i do i win 50$ wooo wooo....lol I love you baby doll.... whatever happened to you calling me on the thursday after you coloerd my hair? i needed it cut! oh well... it still looks good. and it is softer than fuck.. thank you so much for doing it. i love it..... and thnx for the other shit u put in my hair to make it as soft as it is....I love you babydoll i am gonna get back to adding pics to my myspace and playing spider solitare! or however you spell that! I love you! KUV HLUB KOJ! ( <-- I love you in mung)

Current Mood: bouncy
Thursday, May 10th, 2007
7:45 pm
Oh Wow!

Oh wow its been a long time since i have been on this lj! I love you so much! and i miss you sooo very much! I am sooo happy this is still open....not we can talk to each other again like we used to! lol Rob is so sweet! he is taking me and alli to the fair tomorrow, and then while i am at work on saturday he is taking alli back to the fair! awww I LOVE HIM! But you are always gonna be my bestesterest Friend in the whole intire world...no guy will replace that! Well babycakes i have to finis getting ready for work! I love you!!!!

Current Mood: shocked
Thursday, April 7th, 2005
6:06 pm
lil fucking slut. stop fucking other peoples boyfriends. i have no problem fucking your shit up, and i would have already done it if not for two reasons...one im a boy, and your a my momma taught me a thing or two, and two this isnt my fight. or believe me fucking slut you'd be mine. i would fucking rip your teeth out one by one...my self.!

you maybe from east, south, west whatever wwarren. but like i said no problem. fucking leave me a comment. do whatever you need to do to make your self feel better about fucking other peoples lives up, just so you could get off. i think you should go get checked if thats a regular thing you do.

oh yea didnt you have a boyfriend as well!?
Saturday, June 7th, 2003
12:00 pm
blah blah i love you
hey hunnie i lvoe you like no other i am fuckin serious...i dont know what i'd do with out you! i am so fuckin serious words can't express how much i love you! you are like 1/3 of my everything...lol! well i want you to have a great birthday and i will see you tomorrow!

*maybee the reason i try to be so romantic with you,niki and dawn is becuase i dont have anybody...but soon i will hopefully*
Thursday, June 5th, 2003
5:14 pm
heylo jakiepoo
awwww i love you too.....i miss ya bunches......but i got to go i'll write more when i have time.....

Current Mood: blah
Thursday, April 24th, 2003
8:39 pm
read it bitch
Viki I love you and i love Mark *not like that eww no offense* but this is getting alittle outta hand...but i love you and that was a stupid mistake to sleep with you i just wish he couls trust me and most of all YOU....I love you and i need you back, i know you arre there for me and this sounds selfish but i get you in trouble EVERYTIME we talk on the phone and i dont like that...I dont like coming in between yous and Mark's relationship...I dont like being the reason you too fight...I hate it because i know that Mark is one of the best things thats ever happend to you but i want you back.... i know i am grounded but i love you and miss you and like dawn said we are falling apart all of us! I love you and i will talk to you later...i hope you get this!
Wednesday, April 9th, 2003
5:40 pm
Omg I so miss all of you guys...like no other...I need to get out of this hell because it is stupid and all that other poop! I hate not seeing you guys and I am dying inside...I miss being the bitch boi...lol....wait not really! but I lvoe you guys and I hope you acctually read this viki without me telling you too!
Monday, January 20th, 2003
11:18 pm
omg jake i am soo pissed at niki right now...........do you know how she gets when i even talk to someone she likes.....well she is basically all over ronnie.....and you know how much i like him........grrrrrrrness.......anyway......i had fun today!!! i hope i get to go with you and ur sister...it would be soo much fun....well hun i got to go to bed tomorrow i have finals tomorrow.....nighty nigh love you much buuh bye L8er g8or!!

Current Mood: infuriated
Monday, January 13th, 2003
6:50 pm
omg jake......i cant do it..... i cant live here.....bonnie just makes me do everything....niki never does anything...i feel like i am still at my aunts.....and i dont like one of her friend...i cant think of his name but every time he is here i feel strange.he is always looking at me....i unno what to do i am kinda scared....got to go niki is home buh bye luv ya much
Thursday, January 9th, 2003
12:47 am
jake how could you say that........you know that i love you to death and i would do anything in the world for you......i am sorry for everything that i have done.......i just have a really bad anger problem......i cant help it.....i am trying to colm down but sometimes it dont work..........and niki is sorrie too...........i love you so much......i cant believe you think that i dont like you and that i am only ur friend when i need somebody.........its not that way hun.....i am crying right now.....it hurts that i am ur best friend and you could think shit like that......i would never truly hurt you.....and if i have i am sooo sorriw....ur like on of the best frined i have ever had and i dont wanna ever lose you...... i dont know what i would do w/out you...... i love you
Friday, January 3rd, 2003
2:16 pm
I dont fuckin get it...why the fuck to you,Niki and sometimes dawn whenever you feel the need just bite my head off for the stupidest shit in the world?!? your fine one minute and the next you fuckin hate me...I dont get it! I just asked to stop swearing because i was on the phone with my mom....I dont swear at my mom that often I am sorry.....or even around her for that matter!
Am I just an easy target?!? Are you really my friend or just when you need me to be?!? I just dont feel I am...and I am realizing you trteat me like shit....I am sorry but like the other day when I asked you to stop hitting me...you blew up...you dont realize it but you hit hard! grrr...I just always TRY to be nice and everything but but for some reason I am the one to get blown up on...fuck that...who are my friends....I know ...or think dawn is but who else....I dont feel you and niki are because look how you treat me....! this is how I feel that you feel I am not being a bitch but....hey!
Wednesday, January 1st, 2003
2:51 pm
Viki I wanted....
I really wanted a guy here....I want to have a special nite! I wanted to make out and have sex! boo hoo! well we were both dickless so...we matched!
Sunday, December 29th, 2002
5:26 am
wow jake
trevor just left.......we had sex again.....and this time we used the condom.....and he lasted more than 5 mins....actually we went for bout 45 mins....lol.....god i am really starting to fall in love with him!!!! what do i do....niki will bitch if she finds out bout me and trevor.....well just in case she does me and him didnt have sex at all....just layed cuddled...and kissed....ok jake this i strickly between me you and trevor....i love you so much.....man i iwsh bonnie wasnt here so i could of showed him how good it was at time(moaning)....i couldnt really moan....bonnie was awake.....he just left at like 5:25....and we had sex from 4:35-5:13...however long that was....was however long it took him to nut..of coarse we took the condom off w/the last 15-20 mins...thats when it felt the best!!! well hun i got to go to sleep now i love you night night...
p.s. i keep secrets with you!!

Current Mood: naughty
4:19 am
Tuesday, December 24th, 2002
4:18 am
Mine and your song aww
I'm Already There

He called her on the road
From a lonely cold hotel room
Just to hear her say I love you one more time
And when he heard the sound
Of the kids laughing in the background
He had to wipe away a tear from his eye
A little voice came on the phone
And said "Daddy when you coming home"
He said the first thing that came to his mind

I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there

She got back on the phone
Said I really miss you darling
Don't worry about the kids they'll be alright
Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know that I'll be in your dreams tonight
And I'll gently kiss your lips
Touch you with my fingertips
So turn out the light and close your eyes

I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there

We may be a thousand miles apart
But I'll be with you wherever you are

I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
Oh I'm already
Saturday, December 21st, 2002
12:20 pm
I don't fuckin believe this
how can you stick up for them when like 2 weeks ago we were both bitch....am I the only one that thinks she's wrong??? Yoou and dawn seem to back them up now! I ahte it...grr they are always together and never leave each others side...it's so damn sickening! I fuckin hate this! I am so alone when I come here it is not even funnie...no niki...no don...no viki nor dawn! you no what just fuck it...because now I feel bad because I am not gonna be there for her while she is cryin...I can't! I can't do this becuse like I said before it is not only her going through it it is us too because we are here all the time! And no more bitchin about lyin because how many times does she lye...."it'll be better now" but yet it's worse...fuck it!
Wednesday, December 18th, 2002
5:27 pm
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